Wednesday, July 31, 2013

I Worry

I worry.

Worry is your heart goes boom boom boom because you are uncertain of things. It makes you want to take a peek into the future, so that you can anticipate things. Or curse things.

Your prayer is a prayer of worry and requests as if you don't believe that everything He plans is good. You pray to ask for things, and you forget to listen to Him.

Worry is not trusting. You know the Lord holds your future and that future is according to His good, but you just cannot wait. You just do not trust Him.

Worry is being attached to things. You cannot say "I have nothing to lose." Because you have many things.

I worry.

And He told me what to do, that I should learn to let go. It is not easy. But he made it easy, somehow, when my hard disk crashed. Goodbye One Piece, Batman, Naruto, Fairy Tail, and tons of movies. And when I didn't get the house(s) that I wanted, over and over. He said that he had something better in store for me. Warning: "better" for Him might mean no house, or more hard disks crashing.

When I am constantly being reminded that I have nothing, I learn to let go.

I learn to let go.

I wish someday I could let go of things as easy as letting go doves and balloons.

--Fanni Leets--
#day 3 of 36 random writing challenge

Monday, July 29, 2013

Let's Continue Serving Alcohol!

Dato Sri Idris Jala, currently a minister in Malaysian government, shared this story in Eagles Leadership Conference. It was such a privilege to attend that conference, btw, considering that I am no leader. Anyway, Dato Sri Idris Jala was elected the CEO of Malaysian Airlines at that time. In the introduction of the new CEO, one of his staff asked this difficult question. Please keep in mind that almost all the crews of Malaysian Airlines are Moslem, while Dato Sri Idris Jala is not. So they kinda wanted to test him.
Staff: Almost all of us are Moslems. Malaysia is an Islam country. Why do we serve alcohol in our flight? I do not want a political answer. I do not want a business answer. I want a religious answer. 
Idris Jala: Before answering your question, I have two questions for you. First: Is God all-powerful? 
Staff: Yes, he is. He is all-powerful. 
Idris Jala: Second: Is God holy? Does he hate sins? 
Staff: Yes, he is holy. He hates sins. 
Idris Jala: So why do you think an all-powerful and holy God let alcohol exist in this world? Because His nature is also justice. He lets people choose between to sin and not to sin. That is also what we do. As the people of God, He is our example. 
Later that day, the staff that asked the question looked for Dato Sri Idris Jala to say: "Dato, that is a very good answer. Let's continue serving alcohol!"
Dato Sri Idris Jala, Dr Chatree Duangnet, Dr John Ng, and Dr Gabriel Cámara answering questions from delegates in Leadership Dialogue 1: Transforming People And Organization

I am, too, impressed by Dato Sri Idris Jala's answer. I can see that he has a holistic approach in living in this world. For him, there is no dichotomy of the sacred and the world. There are still lots of great insights from him, and from other great speakers in the conference. That's why you have to consider going into Eagles Leadership Conference 2015. :)

--Fanni Leets--
#day 2 of 36 random writing challenge

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Thesis Statement

For the past half an hour I've been typing and deleting words in this post. I wrote about how I don't get the hang of the too-overused jargon "be positive" and "positive thinking," about the uncle taxi driver that was so nice yesterday, about a spoiled brat that I know and how I'm trying not to be one. But it all went only for one paragraph. And I don't know what to write next. Hence the deletion.

Why am I doing this? Remind me.

O, I remember. Brilliant Yotenega wrote this invitation of random writing for 36 days on this post on FB. Everyone is welcomed.

It's embarrassing, but lately my posts are the posts that I submitted for contest. Forgive me for I've succumbed that low. So in this post let me analyze myself of why I don't write as much as I want to.

I guess my problem is that I love thesis statement very much. I stuck at one paragraph and cannot move on to the other because I just find no concept to write. (Not that if I do write one finished post it will have a strong concept). A concept, defined in a thesis statement, helps to elaborate writing. It gives me focus on what I want to write.

Now I sound like a teacher trying to shove in how to write an essay for my students. Pardon me.

It is not that I don't have concept or focus that I want to write. Everyday ideas are all around, and sometimes those ideas knock on my head and I give them permission to enter. The problem is that I don't immediately write them down somewhere, and they're gone. Ideas are peculiar. If we don't hold on to them (as in write them down), they just decide to leave us. Weird, it's as if they're alive. I have to learn from my ultimate favorite writer of all time, Roald Dahl, who wrote his ideas immediately when they come.

Psst, go check out this for writing tips by Roald Dahl:, which are basically these:
  1. Capture every idea (in a notebook, or mobile devices to make it time-relevant)
  2. Create a place to work
  3. Create a routine
  4. and bla bla bla until number 6
One of most favorite pages from Roald Dahl and the brilliant illustrator, Quentin Blake.
This is an excerpt from The Twits. A must read.

Well, see you in the next thirty something days until the end of August.

--Fanni Leets--
#day 1 of 36 random writing challenge

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Managing My Daily Budget

Let me be honest. Being married is a whole lot more difficult than being single, at least for me. Life as my single self knew has ended. There are so many things to think about now: thinking of how meals can appear three times a day at our dining table, thinking of how our little crib in the in-laws' house can be kept clean and decent, thinking how to save money for future: we dream of our own little house, our future children's education, and our pension plan.

That's why I started to find solace in snooping on other women's sharing on forums and blogs. It's easier to see how other women/people cope with life than having to figure everything out by myself from scratch. One thing that concerns me the most is our finance. My husband and I are both employees with limited salary, and I thought our limited salary can bring us anywhere, but I was wrong. Thanks to financial planners’ blogs, newsletters and twitters, I found out I can do something.

A few months ago my brother introduced me to (I don’t remember why, I think it’s one of her friends works there or something) and I found it interesting because the articles there are suitable for women and people who just start to have financial awareness, like me!. 

Here is how I basically manage our monthly salary, after setting aside tithing: 

Picture is from here
  1. The first thing to do is to INVEST first. I invest my money in Reksadana and sometimes gold. Beware: Before you invest, take time to really read and learn first about investment. It is worth it. LiveOlive is a good place to start learning about money management and investment. Read this link and tell me you’re not intriqued to invest! 4 Alasan Mengapa Wanita Sebaiknya Berinvestasi
  2. Then, I put aside money to build my Dana Darurat. My mistake was putting money in investments and not building Dana Darurat, because I thought money in Dana Darurat will not grow. Oh, how I wish I knew how important Dana Darurat is. Now that I need to pay for my first house’s down payment, I cannot sell my Reksadana and gold because their prices are decreasing so low these days. If only I had Dana Darurat, things will be easier. Read about the importance of Dana Darurat here.
  3. After feeling secure because all the savings and investments have been set aside, I plan my expense based on budget. I have both weekly expense budget and monthly expense budget. You can take a peek at what expense budget you should have here. They even have a Budgeting Tool! This makes it so much easier to spend money everyday.
Well, ladies, if you want to have your finance prepared for the future while still living a good life now, what are you waiting for? You just need to plan it, and LiveOlive can be your partner.

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